[Only two, tiny words on a screen, but somehow there is so much feeling in them, still. There is a tension, a heaviness in it all. Possibly one of the most genuine things she's said to Jon in... a long while at this point.]
Oh, you know. Getting by. Not much choice, otherwise, is there?
[There's a pause before she adds: ]
You realize we aren't friends, right? And that by being trapped in the same bloody magically binding bullshit contract doesn't mean you have any obligation to care or worry about me.
I'm not an obligation to be carried, Jon. I'm not a responsibility to be shouldered.
[For once, this isn't something said simply to be an arse to him. It's a bit of an attempt at alleviating the pressure, actually. Taking away the fault from his shoulders. Sure, he has his fingers in just about everything at this point, intentional or otherwise, but... it isn't all his fault, is it? She may have issues with him, but Jon really does have a tendency to try and take on the problems of everyone around him for his own, and... well, Melanie just finds that completely stupid. Everything can't be his fault, can it? Not everything.]
[ Of course they're not friends. They've never been friends, they never will be friends, but Melanie has always fallen under the umbrella of care by virtue of working with and, to an extent, for him. She is someone who deserves his concern and his worry, as all of them do. He'll be his own punching bag over what he can and cannot do to help them, what he's done to harm them - there's no martyrdom, just warranted responsibility. ]
I know that. And perhaps against what might be considered better judgement, given our circumstances, I do care.
I'm not trying to carry you, you've never needed that. I just want to help.
same as the last, no hard feels if you want to drop <3
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panopticism) wrote2019-11-10 12:50 pm
saaaaameeee
[Only two, tiny words on a screen, but somehow there is so much feeling in them, still. There is a tension, a heaviness in it all. Possibly one of the most genuine things she's said to Jon in... a long while at this point.]
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How are you holding up, in the meanwhile? I know it's a sensitive question.
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[There's a pause before she adds: ]
You realize we aren't friends, right? And that by being trapped in the same bloody magically binding bullshit contract doesn't mean you have any obligation to care or worry about me.
I'm not an obligation to be carried, Jon.
I'm not a responsibility to be shouldered.
[For once, this isn't something said simply to be an arse to him. It's a bit of an attempt at alleviating the pressure, actually. Taking away the fault from his shoulders. Sure, he has his fingers in just about everything at this point, intentional or otherwise, but... it isn't all his fault, is it? She may have issues with him, but Jon really does have a tendency to try and take on the problems of everyone around him for his own, and... well, Melanie just finds that completely stupid. Everything can't be his fault, can it? Not everything.]
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I know that. And perhaps against what might be considered better judgement, given our circumstances, I do care.
I'm not trying to carry you, you've never needed that.
I just want to help.
same as the last, no hard feels if you want to drop <3
I just wanted it clear.
No misguided notions and all that.